Morning Sickness???
These might very seriously save my life! I am not sure why they call it morning sickness because it definitely doesn’t only last in the morning. Nausea is taking over my life on a daily (all day) basis. It seems to be worse in the morning and late at night but lingers all day.
I’ve had 1 of each today and already feel a little better. Amazon to the rescue
A Letter To My Unborn Child…
Dear Baby Parson
You should know that I have been yearning to meet you for a long while. Its been a tough fight and I’ve wanted to give up but meeting you is so much more important.
As long as there is the slightest bit of hope, I won’t give up. Seeing that pregnancy test say pregnant, learning about increasing HCG levels, and finding out you’re on the way have been the happiest moments of my life. During this journey, I can’t wait to hear your heartbeat, feel you move around, or hold you in my arms. Most importantly I can’t wait to give you all the love I’ve been storing up. And honestly you’ll have more love than you will ever need because your support system that is patiently waiting your arrival is ready to love you too.
I know that you are worth every second and heartache on this journey. This world is a little crazy right now, do take time and mature properly. Because I know you will be one strong black child and a total game changer to this world!
All My Love, Your Mother
First Ultrasound
Honestly I am still in shock. And seeing my child on the ultrasound still seems so surreal. I held it together during the appointment but as soon as I got to the car, I couldn’t hold back the tears. Happy tears of course but they flowed until they couldn’t flow anymore.
I measured at 6 weeks 5 days, which is about the same as my phone apps. Currently I have been switching between two apps- Flo and What to Expect. And according to them we are looking at an Aries April baby and I am here for it. I was glad I was able to record this moment and share it with the people that mean the most to me.
Onward and upward with these pregnancy symptoms…
First Baby Purchase
Guess I can say, I have officially bought my first baby item and for a great deal. A coworker was selling this baby bouncer seat for $13. I mean, how could I pass this up knowing that these usually cost $50-$100! I also got some swaddles and a baby wrap. It’s getting more real each day
Oh We Pregnant, Pregnant….
It’s been a week since I officially found out and wow this has been a world wind of emotions, excitement, discomfort, and reading.
First let me just say, I’ve stopped trying to figure out how far along I am or when the due date might be. It’s absolutely so confusing because they go by the first date of you last period. Since the initial beta blood work which HCG was 160, I’ve had 2 other beta blood work which HCG was 470 and 3943. Next up is the first OB ultrasound
Early pregnancy symptoms are real. I have experienced exhaustion, cravings for pizza, and way too much nausea for one person. Nausea often first thing in the morning and late at night. I have also had extremely tender breasts, which became a major problem because I am a stomach sleeper 🤦🏾♀️. I broke down to purchase a pregnancy pillow to hopefully make side sleeping easier. I 100% recommend this pillow and while it is the best purchase ever, I now have to figure out how to side sleep without my arm going numb.
I initially tried to not let myself get excited and allow those around me to hold all the excitement. But someone told me, just because you don’t allow yourself to get excited doesn’t mean it will hurt any less if something happens. And that is so true, so moving forward I am going to enjoy every moment of it. I’ve waited a lifetime for this and we are just getting started!
Cautiously Optimistic
Well it looks like IUI #2 worked. Even though the science doesn’t back it up, I guess there is something to those old wives tales 🤔.
The few persons I told are ecstatic but I am definitely holding back excitement. I will allow them to be excited for the both of us. Now don’t get me wrong, I have prayed, fasted, and dreamed about this for a long time. So of course I find myself grateful and happy. But there is this gut feeling that wants to get through the follow up blood test later this week and honestly the first trimester.
Its been a long road coming, so I think more than anything I will allow myself to be in the moment, celebrate a little, and enjoy each day. One step closer to Gods promise and a dream fulfilled!
