Baby… Baby… Baby

I literally have not stopped thinking about babies from the first day this journey started. The reality of finally living out one of my dreams and becoming a mother seemed real. And as excited as I was, I didn’t realize it would effect me so much.

Its the first thing I think about when I wake up and the last thing before I go to bed. Its the main thing I notice around me and the yearning that shows up for every mother I encounter. Its the section I find myself skimming when in stores and the most searched topic in my browser. Its the thing that consumes my thoughts and the excitement I experience when this process brings me one step closer. Of course considering many things that come with this decision of motherhood. Things like finances, medical considerations, building my support system, making lifestyle changes, childcare plans, flexibility and changes to my schedule

Even with the nonstop constant thoughts, I am clear that my life is wonderful and unfolding exactly as it should. So I counter my desires by remembering the things I’m grateful for, thinking positive thoughts, limiting the time I wallow in sadness, helping others, and being supportive of mothers around me